Forever...Don't.

I dunno why I must be the one that feels so terrible when things aint right between my parents.
Pour your troubles on me,I gladly listen.
But seriously what must I do from there?
I dunno and cant side on either.
It just made me feels so sad...so sad.

I really hate it when everything I have ONLY yesterday just disappears to no where today.
Tell me I am just being over sensitive.
Somehow I feel things aint right somewhere anymore.

Tell me why is it whenever I am feeling so grief inside, noone reaches me.
Not even you.
What I am expecting?
Maybe I am over expecting.

Despite messages of telling you I really miss you, I hear nothing.

Hold it!

I dont wanna hear a damn thing only when I asked for it.

I dislike things when I have to put a request for it.

But again even if you have said it, oh do I expect what?

I am sorry.
I am too selfish and self centered for my own good.

I guess I just cant stand the feeling of losing things I owned just without a reason.

Losing a love.
Losing a friend.
And what now...perhaps a family.

Dont keep telling me that you love me...when one day it is just gonna end.

Dont promise me a forever.

Forever is only but a time limit wrapped in candy laces by us.

At least when I dont have you, I am still comforted by the fact that you didnt promised me a forever.

Like them...sitting together in a living room, distance not more than 1 meter.
Yet it feels like one's in another country.





What am I hoping for?

For you?
Or.
For me?